:-(

Marhabtein! Kifeik?
ana jaleis
ana eiad....
nazo yoka passi po na moninga nagnay
j'ai triste
yo soy TRISTE!!!!!

I'm tryin to learn different ways to say different things. My status msg. says I am sad because
I really am.

I am down. "Why so downcast o my soul?" "Why should I feel discouraged? Why should the shadows fall?..." I just found out one of my dearest friends is very ill and I don't want her to be. I just feel so far away in the dark away from the people I care the most about. I want to move away to California someday and go to grad school & get my masters, but it's too expensive there. I'd have to find a job, a place to live, and a car. Wow. Silly materialistic things. I'm feelin sorry for myself. I know I need to trust God and pray and be there to cheer her up, and I know that God won't let her handle anything too big, but I want to wrap my arms around her and she's thousands of miles away.

I went and ran a little (not much; I slowed down because I started to cry). I showered (which usually helps make me feel better), had dinner, enjoyed a music concert on campus, I've prayed and journaled (am now blogging), but I still feel bothered by the news. I told God I'm pretty mad. I almost got upset at my family about the whole thing:( I don't want to take out stress on people I love. I want to be alone right now, "Me and God" like Josh Taylor's song. But then I really am dying to vent and let it all out and tell someone who will listen and understand and just hold me.

"You are loved with an everlasting love.
And underneath are the everlasting arms."
That's how my granny used to start her radio program. Why?! She's already been through a lot, why is she suffering so? I don't want my parents stressing or worrying anymore! My mama is hurting because her mama is.:(

Anyway, just wanted to explain my pain...
K thnx for listenin.
Shalom